Running Away

I'm suffering. But it's not God's fault. It's mine. You see, I have Bipolar Disorder and I am not getting better. I go through periods when I'm happy and motivated and then...stress. Stress is a normal part of everyone's life but for a person with BP, stress can trigger a full blown episode. I can't stop crying and I want to pray but I'm so tired and so sad that all I feel like doing is sleeping. And dying. I wish someone would pray for me because I can't keep going on this roller coaster I call life.

I know if I just turn my life over to God I'd be so much better off. So, why don't I do just that?